Where’s The Tipping Point?
“I try so hard to convince myself that I am not ill, that I am not truly suffering, that I am keeping it all together. This is the opposite of compassion, is it not? This denial only keeps me from taking care of myself. It is the “push through” method, and it doesn’t work.”
I would so very much like for the “push through” method to work. It did for years, to an extent. And yet, crazy = doing the same thing over and over again, expecting different results. Expecting the results I want instead of the results I’ve gotten so far, doing the same thing over and over again, hammering away at every problem like I never learned how to use a paintbrush or a suture needle or a rotary blade or a shotgun. I’m afraid. What if I put down the crazy hammer of denial and have nothing to pick up in its stead? Been a long damned time since I studied Shotokan, or even Bujinkan. I prefer blades for their surety to easily broken fingers, but the lack never stopped me from punching at all the really hard things, no matter how much it hurt. Which takes me right back to my default.
March 30th, 2011 at 3:37 am
Just discovered your blog. There’s a lot of intriguing things to browse here. I’m coming back when I have sufficient time to immerse myself in all the wordy goodness.
July 14th, 2011 at 6:29 pm
Dropped by to check the blog, I really love the things I’ve read!
FYI, tried to watch the video that seems to be on your ‘do re me’ about page, but the embed code seems to point to a resource that’s no longer there.
July 14th, 2011 at 10:42 pm
Ack! Thank you for letting me know!